Secret Garden Wish

I want a love like GRI and KJW.

So, this is something I've wished for a while now. I want a real love story. This wish will not be easy to fulfill. You see, this is what my wish is.

I am a shy person. I don't really approach guys. Even at work, I don't talk to the guys there. Most of them are my age. They talk to each other, but I'm always standing there, being quiet and shy. It's not that I don't want to talk to people, it's just that I can't. I don't know what's up with my personality. I just don't like talking. I can only talk to people who talk to me.

That leads to my problem. How will I create my own love story if I can't talk to guys? I want to work harder to be more open because I'm probably one of the weirdest most craziest person that you will ever meet. I hope to find someone who will be willing to accept that side of me.

Now let me explain the acronyms. GRI stands for Gil Ra Im. KJW stands for Kim Joo Woo. These are the main characters from my most favorite Korean dramas. Through my journey of watching this drama, I fell in love with these characters. It made me want a love story just like them. I sometimes see gifs and rewatch specific episodes and cry because I want a love story as true as theirs.

I just really want to find one person that I can be myself with. Even if we don't last that long, it would still be nice to fall in love and do all those things that girlfriends and boyfriends do. That didn't really happen with my first relationship, and I realize that now after observing my friend. I want a real relationship, cuteness in all.

And so, with that wish in my heart, I fold up my star and put it into my jar/box. (I've decided I'm not going to post a picture of that because I feel like I'm repeating the same picture over and over again. If I put it in the same place, I'm not going to take a picture)

Thanks for reading :D
Star Count: 5

More and More Albums

One of my wishes is to gain more K-pop albums!
I've always wanted to support my favorite groups by buying their albums but before last year, I was not able to because my parents do not like/trust buying things online. When I got my first job (which i'm still working at!), I was able to start buying albums. That was 11 months ago. Since then, I've purchased only five albums (to me, that's a little). Below is a picture of all my albums.

I bought them in this order:
1. Big Bang's Alive T.O.P. version (because who doesn't love TOP?)
2. EXO-K's Mama debut album
3. EXO-M's Mama debut album (I know. It is the same as EXO-K's except in chinese. I really wanted to support EXO-M as well.... plus I wanted the poster.... Don't judge)
4. Big Bang's Still Alive Big Bang version (really wanted the TOP version but I already got that for the Alive album)
5. Nu'est's Action <--- bought this solely because of the song Action.

That is my meager collection of K-Pop albums. I really want more, hence my wish below.

K-Pop makes me happy. I hope to purchase G-Dragon's upcoming album, any album MBLAQ comes out with, more Big Bang albums, EXO's albums (probably both since I can never decide...), and many more.... hopefully. I do have to start paying for my own gas.... sooooo..... I really hope I can make this wish come true. I want to end up with at least 12 by this time next year. Hopefully I'll still be extremely dedicated to K-Pop like I am now.

So as I fold up my wish......

and place it into my new (still temporary) jar (more like a box. I'm so sorry stars. I'll find a good place for you soon...ish?)

hoping with all my heart that it will come true.

Thanks for reading! :)
Star Count: 3

I'm...... not over you

If you guessed this wish is about a break up, you are correct.
Well, this is the star. I hope I'll be able to get prettier star paper later, but I don't know where I can get some. I ordered some from ebay, but they will not get here until the 24ish. I got this star paper from an Asian festival.
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This is the wish that the star contains.

I apologize for my bad handwriting. I really need this wish to come true. It's been exactly one year this day since he broke up with me and I'm still crying over it. Let me tell you about the last time I cried over him.

It was July 29th. My friend, her "boyfriend", and I just had a birthday dinner for my friend. We were in the back seat while her "boyfriend" drove. My head was stuck out the window and the music was blasting at like 9 at night. It was amazing. It was fun. It was one of my most favorite moments.
but what ruins it? Hanging out the window did. It's one of my favoritest things to do when I'm in a car. If you let me stick my head out the window, you become one of my favorite drivers, but it was ruined. With the good mood all around, my thoughts just happened to drift back to him. I didn't even know why. I never hung my head out the window of his car but anyway, back to the point.
I cried that night, while hanging out of the backseat window of my BEST FRIEND's "boyfriend"'s car. I don't know why. I just know that I did. I'm not the kind that wants people to know that I've cried, so i just play it off as the wind making my eyes dry but it was more than that. He was able to ruin a perfectly amazing night. Why do I still let him have influence over me like this? I don't know why and I don't care anymore.
My tears are wasted on him and I hope that I won't cry because of him anymore. And now, I place my star into the cup to join the rest of my wishes.

Thanks for reading.

Star Count: 3

Start

I folded the first wishes.


Yes, you read that right. I started my folding my first few wishes. Hopefully it does not take me 5 years to make 1000 wishes. But you can see below the wishes that I put into my stars.
So first, this is my star jar. I've had this since I was 13, so it's been 4 years. These are the stars that I've folded. I never put wishes into them. These are just empty stars. I can't say that. Some stars have things written in them, but that's a post for another day. Here is my star jar.

I don't plan to get rid of these stars. I'll keep them but they have no meaning to me. These two next stars have meaning.

They mark the beginning of my new journey. A journey that I needed to make since last August. A journey that will hopefully help me heal from what I've been through. As I sit here, I've come up with another wish. I'll leave that for a separate post. Anyway, here are the wishes I wrote into the stars. I hope these will actually come true.

As I place my stars into the new jar (I'm using a cup at the moment. I need to go find a jar to decorate before I can feel that this has officially started), I start my journey of wishes. Hopefully this blog will be able to catalog all those wishes.

Thanks for reading.

Star Count: 2

A little bit about this blog

Ok, so I've decided to start a new blog. To start off, I would like to put my face in this blog. It's the first blog I've ever put my face on, so this is a pretty big deal for me.

Anyway, this blog will be dedicated to all the wishes I have in my life. Everything I want will be put into this blog. Every desire I have will probably be recorded in this blog.
I got this idea because I want to start folding my 1000 lucky stars. I have a whole bunch of folded stars, but I've never made wishes with them. I shall start now. When I have a star worthy of a wish, I will write it on my star paper and then fold it. My stars will be important.
Once I finish these 1000 stars, I will open them and see which ones I've fulfilled. I'll probably make other posts about other things I've completed. There will be lots of images from this place that I have already done from their bucket list. I want this blog to represent all my worries, my wishes, everything.
This is who I am. Every post will probably come from my heart and hopefully it'll be interesting. That's all for now. I hope I can keep up with this blog because I want this to be the one thing I actually finish.