Secret Garden Wish

I want a love like GRI and KJW.

So, this is something I've wished for a while now. I want a real love story. This wish will not be easy to fulfill. You see, this is what my wish is.

I am a shy person. I don't really approach guys. Even at work, I don't talk to the guys there. Most of them are my age. They talk to each other, but I'm always standing there, being quiet and shy. It's not that I don't want to talk to people, it's just that I can't. I don't know what's up with my personality. I just don't like talking. I can only talk to people who talk to me.

That leads to my problem. How will I create my own love story if I can't talk to guys? I want to work harder to be more open because I'm probably one of the weirdest most craziest person that you will ever meet. I hope to find someone who will be willing to accept that side of me.

Now let me explain the acronyms. GRI stands for Gil Ra Im. KJW stands for Kim Joo Woo. These are the main characters from my most favorite Korean dramas. Through my journey of watching this drama, I fell in love with these characters. It made me want a love story just like them. I sometimes see gifs and rewatch specific episodes and cry because I want a love story as true as theirs.

I just really want to find one person that I can be myself with. Even if we don't last that long, it would still be nice to fall in love and do all those things that girlfriends and boyfriends do. That didn't really happen with my first relationship, and I realize that now after observing my friend. I want a real relationship, cuteness in all.

And so, with that wish in my heart, I fold up my star and put it into my jar/box. (I've decided I'm not going to post a picture of that because I feel like I'm repeating the same picture over and over again. If I put it in the same place, I'm not going to take a picture)

Thanks for reading :D
Star Count: 5

I'm...... not over you

If you guessed this wish is about a break up, you are correct.
Well, this is the star. I hope I'll be able to get prettier star paper later, but I don't know where I can get some. I ordered some from ebay, but they will not get here until the 24ish. I got this star paper from an Asian festival.
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This is the wish that the star contains.

I apologize for my bad handwriting. I really need this wish to come true. It's been exactly one year this day since he broke up with me and I'm still crying over it. Let me tell you about the last time I cried over him.

It was July 29th. My friend, her "boyfriend", and I just had a birthday dinner for my friend. We were in the back seat while her "boyfriend" drove. My head was stuck out the window and the music was blasting at like 9 at night. It was amazing. It was fun. It was one of my most favorite moments.
but what ruins it? Hanging out the window did. It's one of my favoritest things to do when I'm in a car. If you let me stick my head out the window, you become one of my favorite drivers, but it was ruined. With the good mood all around, my thoughts just happened to drift back to him. I didn't even know why. I never hung my head out the window of his car but anyway, back to the point.
I cried that night, while hanging out of the backseat window of my BEST FRIEND's "boyfriend"'s car. I don't know why. I just know that I did. I'm not the kind that wants people to know that I've cried, so i just play it off as the wind making my eyes dry but it was more than that. He was able to ruin a perfectly amazing night. Why do I still let him have influence over me like this? I don't know why and I don't care anymore.
My tears are wasted on him and I hope that I won't cry because of him anymore. And now, I place my star into the cup to join the rest of my wishes.

Thanks for reading.

Star Count: 3